FMF – What do I know?

Five-Minute-Friday writing prompt: Know

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What do I know?

When I was very young I learned that “I don’t know” was an effective skill to not get into too much trouble.

When one has learned that answering a question wrongly can lead to punishment or humiliation, one learns to not take the risk of answering.

It was somewhat useful, but like most man-made coping mechanisms, it had a down-side. It had unrequited side-effects, if you like.

One was that answering “I don’t know” let me off the hook of bothering to express myself, of actually finding out what I thought, felt or wanted for myself.

Answering text-book questions was a matter of memory, but for opinions, it was best to not know.

But I want to know, so I have had to learn these things as an adult.

There are some things that I would have said that I did know – or that I believed to be true for me, or believed to be objectively true. I would have said that God is Love. That God is good.

Some people say they ‘know it in their knower’, but this never rang true for me.

Recently I am rediscovering how, after nearly 45 years as a Christian, many of those things that I believed that I knew, I now realise that not every part of me does know!

My head knows many things – about God, the world, the Bible, about myself and other people – but many of those ‘truths’ are not believed by my heart, only my head; and are not known in deep recesses of my psyche.

One by one, as I continue to pursue God and His ways and continue to open myself up to know His unfathomable love; little by little the path gets a little lighter and clearer…

One of my beliefs is that one day, I shall see and know Jesus, even as I am fully seen and fully known by Him.

How amazing will that be?

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11 thoughts on “FMF – What do I know?

  1. This is a huge revelation, “One was that answering, ‘I don’t know’ let me off the hook of bothering to express myself.” This is a beautiful pursuit, Dawn, “Many of those ‘truths’ are not believed by my heart, only my head. One by one, as I continue to pursue God and His ways and continue to open myself up to know His unfathomable love.”

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  2. Yes, getting those truths to move the 18 inches from our heads to our hearts is the challenge. It happens little by little over time. We all have a lot of heart learning that needs to happen in order to increase our faith!

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