Five-Minute-Friday writing prompt: Know
What do I know?
When I was very young I learned that “I don’t know” was an effective skill to not get into too much trouble.
When one has learned that answering a question wrongly can lead to punishment or humiliation, one learns to not take the risk of answering.
It was somewhat useful, but like most man-made coping mechanisms, it had a down-side. It had unrequited side-effects, if you like.
One was that answering “I don’t know” let me off the hook of bothering to express myself, of actually finding out what I thought, felt or wanted for myself.
Answering text-book questions was a matter of memory, but for opinions, it was best to not know.
But I want to know, so I have had to learn these things as an adult.
There are some things that I would have said that I did know – or that I believed to be true for me, or believed to be objectively true. I would have said that God is Love. That God is good.
Some people say they ‘know it in their knower’, but this never rang true for me.
Recently I am rediscovering how, after nearly 45 years as a Christian, many of those things that I believed that I knew, I now realise that not every part of me does know!
My head knows many things – about God, the world, the Bible, about myself and other people – but many of those ‘truths’ are not believed by my heart, only my head; and are not known in deep recesses of my psyche.
One by one, as I continue to pursue God and His ways and continue to open myself up to know His unfathomable love; little by little the path gets a little lighter and clearer…
One of my beliefs is that one day, I shall see and know Jesus, even as I am fully seen and fully known by Him.
How amazing will that be?